Confused and Determined

I'm usually pretty out there with my feelings on here but I don't know what to write tonight... Things that I thought were done and gone are creeping up in my head again and I don't know how I feel about that... I can't forget what has happened but I also don't know why I can't just write it off either. Oh well, I'm not in a place where I can move out and be on my own and I don't think my parents' house is a good place for me to start a new relationship either. SO I think it will be another year or so unless God has other plans for my life.

HOWEVER! I am determined to maintain this exercise routine. I am awesome at starting a routine and change but stink at keeping up with it for the long haul. Its time though. Softball really has jump started this because I had a baseline fitness level to judge myself on and I really realize how far I have fallen. I know I can do this because I was once at that fitness level and I know what it takes to get back to where I was.

I'm awesome and I have so much more confidence now than I've had in a while. I still have my doubts but I know where I am going and who is leading me there:)

Trying to Find My Routine...

Things have been so crazy busy for me already this summer! I can not believe today is July 1st!! Already... I have my first engagement shoot tomorrow! Super excited about that. I did my first maternity shoot last Sunday and it turned out sooo GOOD! I will try to get some pictures posted soon.

Small group is up and running! We will be having a new blog roll out soon if you want to join to see what we are talking about and how God is working in our lives. We have an amazing group of people and I look forward to getting to know everyone better.

I am officially losing weight again! I realized its been a year since I moved home and in this past year I have lost 14lbs.. ONLY 14lbs but it is progress. I am going to try to kickstart that within the next few weeks by getting back on a routine of working out after getting off work at 4:30pm. I have been working 4 ten-hour days which was nice for the extra day off but not so nice for my workout schedule... not enough time in the evening and I have proven I am not a morning workout person:)  So hopefully, working out with my Small Group on Sundays and my new schedule will open up my possiblities for workout time....

For now, I will leave you with a few pictures from my recent trip back to Honduras:)

Climbed a mountain and was rewarded with this view!

Some of my friends I hadn't seen in a couple of years!

The fearless boy who prayed in front of the whole class...

Me, playing with the kiddos...

Our VBS team leading a group of 250+ children!

The Amazing VBS team who taught a TON of children the word and spirit of God!

The happiest little man who received a new wheelchair!

The beautiful view on our bumpy bus ride every morning!

Our Whole Team!

WOW!

It really is amazing what can change in a month! A month ago, I posted how lonely and bored I was and after posting it and reading it a couple of times and praying about the things that needed changing in my life, I started doing something about it. I am SOOO busy now!

My schedule is getting a little ridiculous with small group, photo sessions, work, and trying to squeeze a bit of a social life in there!  Every weekend from now until the middle of May is busy with something! This coming weekend, I have water purification training for Honduras and the weekend after that is INSANE with Katie and Joe's wedding and Erica's baby shower!  I am hoping after that weekend it will calm down some and I can have Jasmine come up and go to the Zoo with me and have some girl time:) I can't wait!! Before I know it, June will be here and I'll be on my way to Honduras! Super excited!!!

Yes, my life has gotten crazy but this is what I prayed for and in one short month, God has filled my calendar with friends and family and I am loving every second!

DAVID♥kristen

It's official! I am in love with photography... all kinds...  and I had the best time at Kristen and David's wedding!  They are so in love and truly best friends and it is evident in every glance.  I had such a great time assisting at this wedding and felt privileged that they allowed me to add their photos to my portfolio. Enjoy!

 (this one is crying for my watermark)

Aren't they so cute? I thought so. Thank you Kristen and Dave for allowing me to be a part of your day:)

Inspired:)

I have so many creative people in my life and I like to think I am one of them;) Today, I posted a simple plea for some help brainstorming names for my new photography business.. I have such a great facebook community of fun creative people and have thus far come up with some AMAZING prospects! I am super excited since I am really trying to dive head first into my art since all winter  I feel like I have been slowing dragging my heels for some reason.  I just figure God has a plan and I am trying to listen and follow obediently. 

Tomorrow, I am assisting another wedding photographer with my second wedding ever.  My first wedding was such a blast that I really want to go at it again. I was EXHAUSTED after the first full day of wedding photos but it was so worth it to realize that my "pretty pictures" have turned into such a passion for me.  I was just asked to assist yesterday so hopefully I will have permission to use these photographs in my marketing material and on here as well so everyone can get a glimpse at why I have been so excited.  I am always hesitant to post a picture unless I know that person well and know they won't care or unless I have their stated and sometimes written permission. As you can see, I have been a bit cowardly about the latter statement because you all have seen a lot of the same people.  I am hoping to change that soon!

And Sunday, we are kicking off our new small group at Morning Star Church for those of us who were Born In The Eighties (appropriately named B.I.T.E. by Alex, one of our awesomely creative members) with a kickball game. I thought that was fitting seeing as it is a "kick-off" event;) ... haha well anyway, it should be fun... and then after I am finished with that, I am going to my friend Ashleigh's new house to brainstorm some names for my business and hopefully start working on my new logo and watermark! YAY!!!

Well, I am off to bed for now. I am hoping this inspiration and motivation will continue through the next couple of months and catapult my new photography business into existence!

'night. 'night;)

Two posts in ONE DAY!!!

Crazy, I know! I am at work chillin' and waiting another hour to get off but I thought I would write more than just a little picture post today. I have finally signed up for an official class thanks to my parents and my birthday present! I am so excited because I will be getting a flash in the mail soon and my class starts in May. I need to start putting my portfolio together so I have something to show off when someone asks to see a sample of my work.  I have been learning so much from other photographers' blogs and photography websites. I can't believe the wealth of information I have gotten off the internet.

I also have a job interview with a local hospital in their wellness department in about a week.  I can't wait but I am nervous because its actually in my field and I haven't worked in my field for a year and a half now. All prayers are welcome because this will be a great opportunity for me. I am also looking within my current company as well. I need more money so I can pay off my debt and move into my own house. It is time for me to grow up and be an adult:) 

That's all for now. Nothing that awesome going on but my life is looking up:)

Sun is Shining and things are good...

Hello friends.. its been a little bit since I have updated this and so I am gonna take a little time and show you some new pictures I have taken recently. These are from a couple of weeks ago in Cape.  We have had some beautiful weather lately and so I have been in photo heaven!! This past weekend was Easter so my sister was in town. I love having her around even though she was grumpy most of the time:) 

Anyway, more updates and pictures to come....