Sunday, May 24, 2009

It is finished...

How does your life go from being exactly the way you want it to falling down around you and all you can do is watch the pieces crumble? I feel like I am in a movie and in the matter of a month my security, my love, my everything is gone... How do things get like this? I am so sad and alone... I have lost my best friend, my boyfriend, my kid... and I can do nothing about it. I can't make someone love me. I have done everything I could to make this work. Why doesn't anyone love me? Why is this happening again? I do everything right, but in the end he doesn't love me the way he should. Maybe I need to not care so much and treat a guy like shit so he will chase me instead of hurt me... I am just so incredibly hurt and I can't do anything about it... I give up...Maybe I'm just not meant to be loved. I give too much of myself and in the end I am left with nothing because there is nothing left; and it always ends.


  1. I am so sorry for your loss. I completely understand how you are feeling and am so so sorry. I am in the St. Louis area too (O'Fallon), so if you need an ear to listen, I am more than happy to be that person. I will be praying for you for peace in your life. You're great!

    Sarah Alvarez (Harrer)
    314 223 5179

  2. I'm so sorry you are hurting. I really wish I had something epic to say that would make the pain go away.

    You'll find someone that deserves you. And one day, it will completely make sense. I promise you. {hug}